When I was little, sometimes I’d walk into the living room where Dad was watching a movie on TV. He liked westerns, like his parents before him.
These shows and movies were only mildly interesting to me. I would have much rather been watching Bugs Bunny cartoons.
But wanting to feel grownup, I’d watch. And sometimes, trying to figure things out, I’d ask Dad who the good guys were, and who the bad guys were.
And Dad would tell me: those guys with the white hats, they’re the good guys. And those guys with the black hats, they’re the bad guys.
Well, that made sense. It kept things simple. I liked that…It was all as plain as day; black and white. Literally.
These days, that “white hat/black hat” terminology has shifted over to the world of computer hackers. "White hats" are ethical hackers who use their skills to identify vulnerabilities in systems and networks, while "black hats" are malicious hackers who exploit those vulnerabilities for personal gain or harm.
Anyway, I brought that “white hate/black hat” way of understanding the world with me to my reading of the Bible. It was a way of understanding the Bible that was taught to me in Sunday School.
⚫In the Bible, there are good guys and bad guys. Abraham. Moses. David. These are the good guys, the guys who, if they were in a western, would be wearing the white hats.
But Pharaoh, Goliath, Haman…people like that… these are the bad guys.
I think I even pictured Abraham, Moses, and David wearing white robes, and Pharaoh, Goliath, and Haman wearing robes of darker colors. In this way, they matched the heroes and villains of those westerns Dad liked to watch.
But as I grew older, I began to study these stories a little more deeply, a little more intently. I began paying attention to details that I had ignored before, or which were skipped over in Sunday School.
Abraham, for example: could he really be considered all good if he was willing to sacrifice his own son? And what was it about that episode where Abraham pretended his wife was his sister, just to save his own butt? What in the name of White Lotus is that all about?
And David… the greatest hero of the Hebrew Bible… he committed sexual assault on Bathsheba, then tried to cover it up by having Bathsheba’s husband killed. How do you reconcile that with his status as the Bible’s greatest hero?
These Biblical heroes weren’t as innocent as I thought…
My realization that these Biblical heroes weren’t 100% pure and innocent came at a time when I was also learning that the United States, the land of my birth, the country I loved, was also not as innocent as I had been led to believe, that this country was built, in part, on slave labor, genocide, and colonialism.
I had to unlearn some of the things I had been taught, which is never easy. I had to accept the fact that things weren’t all black and white, good and bad; that every hero has a flaw or defect.
Well, at least Jesus was (and is) all good. Except: I couldn’t quite understand why Jesus washed Judas’ feet at the last supper. Jesus knew Judas was going to betray him. He knew Judas was the bad guy, the villain in this story… Yet Jesus knelt before Judas and honored Judas by washing his feet.
That made no sense.
All of a sudden, things weren’t as clear to me as they once were. Abraham, David, Judas—all of them—their hats were neither pure black nor pure white. None of them was either all good and innocent, or all bad and evil. They all had a mixture of good and evil in them; good, and sin, mixed together.
It took awhile, but gradually I realized the point the Bible was trying to make. And even though it took awhile, I learned to cast aside those categories of “all good” and “all bad,” and learned to place people in a new category: human.
Which, by the way, is another reason I like the movie Brother Bear. That was the first Disney movie I remember that didn’t have a clearly defined hero fighting against a clearly defined villain…no heroes. No villains. Just humans learning how to be better than they are; good but flawed humans, learning about love and grace and confession and repentance and forgiveness and reconciliation.
As I continued growing and learning, I realized that what I was learning applied to almost everything…that everything was more complex than I had thought.
⚫In school I learned about matter, and I learned about waves of energy, and that these were two different things.
But then I learned that photons of light sometimes behave like particles of matter, and sometimes behave like energy. They defy easy categorization.
And I learned about electrons. Sometimes they are here. Sometimes they are there. Sometimes they are both here and there, which doesn’t make any sense, and yet, it’s true.
And I learned about e=mc², and the theory of relativity, and dark matter; and I learned that no one really understands dark matter, not even the world’s best scientists who study it…
These are things that defy simple categorization or explanation. Things that can be two things at once. Things that don’t make rational sense, but that's how they are, at least to the extent that we are able to understand things.
And if we allow ourselves some time to really ponder such things (not make sense of them, ...but just ponder them) we dip our toe into the amazing mystery of the reality of God.
When I think about God… many questions arise. We study the Bible and find answers there, but, for me, every answer leads to even more questions and mysteries.
This is also something that used to drive me crazy. I wanted easy, simple answers for God. It made me understand the attraction many people have to religious leaders and churches who are all too willing to provide those simple, easy answers.
But I suppose if I could reduce God to something simple and easy, then God would no longer be God. If God is easy and simple to explain, then that god is but merely an idea of my own making.
So I’ve learned to just be in awe of the wonder and mystery of God…, in the same way that I can marvel at how light can be both energy and matter, and how electrons can be both here and there, and how energy can equal mass times the speed of light, squared, without needing an explanation of how that is possible.
In the first chapter of John’s gospel, Christ is described as the Word… John describes Christ as the Word, the Word that was life, the life that is light for all people; a light that shines in the darkness.
And it’s interesting that light is used as a description for Christ. Light, which is a particle, and a wave of energy, just as Christ is both God, and human. How can one being be both? How can one being be two things at once? I don’t know. This is a lot more complicated than telling who’s good and who’s bad by the color of their hat.
How do you think of Jesus? Do you think of him as more human, or more God? … In many Bible stories, Jesus seems very human, and that’s how I usually think of him… But of course, he is also God. In the beginning, he was with God, and he was God…
I’ve been reading some material lately that emphasizes this. And I am left in awe at how Christ is so much more mysterious and wonderful than I am capable of comprehending.
It stretches the imagination.
And then, to add even more wonder and mystery to it all, we heard in today’s scripture that anyone in Christ is a new creation. In Christ, we are made into something new… something more-than-human.
Or, maybe that “new creation” was there all along, but had been forgotten. In Genesis, it says that we are all made in the image of God; the image of God dwells in us. There is a spark of divinity in each of us.
⚫That spark of divinity was made visible in Christ—It was literally made visible at the transfiguration, which we heard about a few weeks ago—and when we unite ourselves with Christ, and become one with Christ, we become, or become aware of, that more-than-human nature within us.
And yet, at the same time, we are human.
And humans, to repeat what I said earlier, are neither perfectly good, nor perfectly evil. We’re not perfect; but we are good.
There is goodness within us. There is goodness within you. And that goodness goes back to the moment you were created.
Modern Christianity likes to talk about original sin, but what about original goodness? The goodness that was present when humans were first created, and pronounced “very good” by God?
Ignoring sin is bad, but it’s also bad to focus solely on sin, and forget our inherent goodness.
I read last week that a lot of people carry with them heavy burdens of shame. Some of it is from things they did when they were children, when they didn’t know better. Some of it is because of things done to them, yet the blame was placed upon them, by themselves, or by those who wanted to avoid taking responsibility for their own actions.
And this shame that people carry around… it weighs people down. For many, it is a cause of depression. For others, it prevents them from living their lives as fully as they can.
And I think one reason we carry this shame is that we still think of the world in terms of white hats and black hats. And we feel that if we’re not perfect in every way, then we don’t deserve the white hat. And if we don’t deserve the white hat, then the only other option is the black hat.
Look. No one deserves the white hat. And no one deserves the black hat. We need to look at ourselves, and those around us, in a new way.
Jesus helps us do that.
He welcomed and embraced those who carried heavy burdens of guilt and shame. He comforted them. If they needed healing, he healed them. In whatever way they needed it, he made them well. He restored them to wholeness. And sent them on their way, which means he made it possible for them to move forward with their lives.
That’s the ministry of reconciliation Christ offers.
Though we may have been broken, in Christ we are made whole. Though we may carry guilt and shame, none of that is counted against us, and in Christ we are reckoned as righteous.
We are not perfect; none of us. But neither are we all evil. None of us is beyond the grace of God.
We are made right with God, because of our inherent goodness; because of the image of God that is within us; and because Christ has reconciled us to God, uniting us forever with the one who made us.